It's been a long possibly 3 or 4 years since I actually updated frequently, to updating weekly to no updates at all. I think by now no one really remembers me; or do they? a few do to which I'm very very grateful for. I've had a lot of run in's with depression, family and life in general, that kept me thinking that what ever it was I was doing; drawing wise. was not worth it that I should quite because it didn't matter if I drew or not no one would really care. However, I've had a few people tell me they really do enjoy my comics that there was something about them that stood out from other comics in the same genre, and yet I didn't believe them, or couldn't believe them because I really didn't see anyone liking my comic, or they liked it for the wrong reasons; I.E. yaoi. either I wasn't drawing enough of it or people just wanted to read into that section of the comic verse anything else; this made them not really understand the story.

I suppose I do wonder sometimes if I stopped drawing the sex would you still favorite it? would you still enjoy the comic? Sadly I had one comic up that does not state Adult on it and yet no one really read it. I think at most I had 5 people favorite the poor comic. It was my first comic I've ever drawn, or first story and it went through reversions currently in it's last time round, with a max or min of 10 chapters this time. However, I never got around to drawing it because like I pointed out above didn't feel like anyone was interested in any of my stories.  I guess what it comes down to is, how I feel about what I do, and for the few who read it and enjoy the comic and story for more then just "XXX". I do say it a lot, for the few people that enjoy my comics I LOVE YOU. and I really am GRATEFUL for all the care and respect you have given me.

I think what got to me finally was that someone pointed out to me, or a really good friend I should say pointed out "I enjoy your comics because they are not generic, they aren't the same love stories that everyone else has. I love those characters because even though they are fantasy, those characters have real life personalities." I think I started to understand those words after a while looking at my characters they don't live in a happily ever after world, and they seemly when I look at them have some sort of malfunction. but I enjoy them because they are who they are, they aren't perfect.  I think each story deals with something that you'd have to read into, or notice to understand why the characters are the way they are.

I've come to terms that, even though I don't get a bunch of comments a bunch of readers like everyone else, I enjoy what I do. I enjoy making comics and stories that possible get a reaction whether good or bad. I'm not the best artist, but I've noticed that people know who I am when I draw, people know it's me, even if under a different name, my style stands out now and that makes me smile, and now so do my stories.

with that said, back to my point, I will be updating again, more frequently when I can that is. I will do my best to draw more, and update for the few people who enjoy my style and for me. I've been updating so far a good amount in January. and all comics are now up on comic furry, drunkduck and mangabullet. (if you'd like the links I can share them) but keep in mind I am currently taking 6 total classes so I will do my best to update between them.

THANK YOU AGAIN TO ALL THOSE WHO HAVE STAYED WITH ME! I'M VERY GRATEFUL TO YOU ALL.

*bow*
mii

ps. for those of you who don't notice because I never said much about it. volume 7 of Nemution jewel, not the redux has been redrawn, still working on it but it was due to the long gap between the pages that I forgot what I was doing and repeated, and more explanations to clarify. that and you will notice that redux will be redrawn up to that point as well.